Thursday, 16 June 2011

16 June - living with cancer

I'm still adjusting to the idea that I have a form of cancer.  I feel a little frightened and out of sorts. I am glad I'm otherwise really healthy. And I'm glad I got the spot on my back checked. It's easy to put off things like that. Several of my friends have mentioned that seeing a dermatologist has been on their To-Do list and they've made the call.

I decided the good thing about this experience is I can tell people about it and maybe they'll feel motivated to take care of their own health and check out moles and spots.  I found an interesting description on wikipedia that said if you have "an ugly duckling" - a mole or spot that's different from the other ones on your body - you need to have a doctor look at it.

A basal cell carcinoma can have several different appearances. It can be a shiny bump, a sore that heals and then forms again, a pink-colored growth, an irritated reddish patch, or a waxy scar. Sometimes, a basal cell carcinoma may resemble psoriasis or eczema. 

I vacillate between thinking no big deal. This is the kind of cancer that doesn't kill people - at least not very quickly - and blah blah blah. And then I dissolve into some tears, especially if anyone is nice to me and offers me some empathy.

I didn't run today because it was pouring ran and I had to work late and had an appointment that got pushed back to discuss race day nutrition.  I want the fire in my belly that I had on Monday. When I was ready to hit the next six weeks really hard. I think I can still do that. I just need a moment to collect myself.

Sunday's race might be my only tri-race this season. That would be a disappointment. But I can't seriously see postponing cancer treatment in order to be able to race. The cost could be too high.

So, what's on your list - Do you have an "I ought to get around to making that call?"   Do it, because I am going to ask you.

Study shows marathon runners at increased risk of skin cancer

Juneathon activity today? Walk the dog.


  1. Kindly people offering empathy are the very devil. That "how are you?" in the special voice used to get me every time. So I shan't be kindly, or offer empathy, but do please take both as read :)

  2. I had a rodent ulcer on my chest cut-out last year. Good luck with your treatment!

  3. Sorry to hear about this -- hope it gets sorted soon. Must be a worry as well as very frustrating in the light of all your hard work. Very best wishes for a speedy recovery and, of course, for Sunday.

  4. Thanks Run Tezza. I got welcome news from the biopsy. All clear.


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