Showing posts with label rotterdam. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rotterdam. Show all posts

Thursday, 15 April 2010

things that worked



Fortis Marathon Rotterdam 2010 from Like2Run on Vimeo.

In no particular order and without stopping to do a major re-write, here are some thoughts about what worked on Sunday.
  1. Taper, dammit. I felt like a caged animal. but prep for an endurance event comes over time. no cramming. I figure it's like building a stone foundation. Every day the quarry is open, you get to go pick up one stone if you follow your plan (Work + Rest = Success).  If you skip, you don't get one of the stones you need to build that foundation. Come race day, you got as many stones as you earned.  No more. It's too late to catch up, and if there's leftover stones in the quarry or holes in your foundation, too bad so sad, the race is gonna suck.
  2. Be strategic in your race plan. a conservative strategy can overcome some deficits in training, but it will still suck a little bit.  I was really sceptical of the idea of running intervals of no more than 15 seconds and then walking for 30 seconds for the first 15 k.  My timer dropped off my belt, and I probably ran slightly longer intervals (counting four paces to the count of 15).  But it worked. I was fast and it felt effortless for the first half.  I knew I was running too fast, but I felt greedy to put time in the bank. I had difficulty really imagining that I could do the whole thing. Jeff had commented that I might hit the wall at 30k since that was my longest run, when I had been assigned 42. And I hadn't done the previous assigned long runs (no 30 k, no 35 k and no 33k). I had my excuses (including the shaggy knee), but frankly speaking, the long runs intimidated me. They don't anymore.  Even 42.2 - piece of cake!
My coach commented:
You had an exceptional run.  You dug down and found the resources that you have always had.  Only when challenged are you likely to learn how to find them. 
If you had done the 42K run, you would not have had so much of a struggle.
Your early pace was too fast--for the first 15K.  This cost you at the end.
We'll see if I do another one, and if doing more of the long runs (I missed basically most of them this winter) means less of a struggle.  At work today, the chief asked me when I planned to do the next one.  I joked that most women wanted only one child - and to ask me when the baby was a little bigger.



3. Surround yourself with stories of triumph. Endurance events require managing your mindset.  I listened to and loved Born to Run and 50/50, Dean K's insane tale of running 50 marathons in 50 days.  I also listened to an interview with a guy who ran nearly 400 miles in something like 8 days. These stories taught me that belief in what is possible makes it possible. Or perhaps the opposite is true - if you don't believe it, you'll never see it.  Believing is Seeing.


4. Do the mental training. I thought repeatedly of the quote from General Patton that tiredness lives in the mind.  And the body will do what the mind tells it.  During the race, I knew my heart rate was fine. I told my body we were doing it. And we did.  I drew on my experiences doing another difficult task: childbirth - the only thing I can compare to that was when I crushed two fingers in between panels of a garage door. The sustained pain reminded me of giving birth.  (My husband was particularly impressed when I relieved the pain by burning holes in the tops of my nails with the end of a paper clip that I had heated with a match.)    Your body will go only as far as your mind thinks it can.


5. Know the deeper why:  doing something this big on a whim might leave you struggling when it gets tough.  I spent some time trying to answer this question.  During the middle of the training, many of my friends will recall that I wanted to quit.  I am pumped about my goals for the summer and fall and thought training for the marathon was turning into a distraction. The long slow distance runs are very time consuming, particularly for someone like me who runs slowly - and my coach's advice for LSD is you can't run them too slowly.  One of the motivations was a sceptical remark my husband made last year. (I'm vaguely recalling a similar kind of remark kicked me into wanting to do an ironman.....)  When I was wobbling, my friends and my husband all said to me, Only you can decide what this means to you.  I decided the point was to explore my human capacity - to see who I am - to learn about myself.

6. Stop thinking so much about yourself.  After I figured out the deeper why, it just seemed a bit shallow. I remember the morning of my argument before the US Supreme Court. The moment had arrived, culminating nearly a year of intense preparation. I felt like a guitar string - I could hardly relax my body.  Anyway, I watched the sun rise and remembered that I was there to advocate for another human being -that I was merely a channel, that it was not about me, my argument, my performance - Ultimately, it was about freeing 2000 people being detained because they were stateless, not because they were criminals. And I began to sing and ask for grace.  I aced the argument.

Well, for the run, I remembered how much strength I drew in Amsterdam because I was running for Rachel.  In March, the CPC was about running for a time goal and I felt like the race was a disaster since I missed the cut-off for an official finish. So I decided to take the focus off myself and to dedicate the merit to Elham Mahdi's memory.   I ran with her all the way. The little plastic rabbit beads on the shoe lace bounced in time to my steps the whole race. It was like a platoon marching. And I conversed with Elham throughout the race, particularly just after finishing the first half - which was the most difficult and painful part of the race for me.  (left foot and right hip).   Being able to draw on something more important than myself helped me. Without it, I probably would have just gone home.



7.  Leverage your integrity.  In truth, there's no way I could have gone home - I told too many people I was doing this race.  This is something that worked really well for me on the hard parts of the course - and for the CPC in March too. No way you can quit when you've told everyone you're doing it.  I admit to thinking about how I could withdraw due to the hip pain, and everyone would understand. But no way. I remembered that there would be a time during the race when I would have to decide to gut it out, and I did.
“Success is how you bounce on the bottom.”
8.  Mentally rehearse.  I planned how I would react to bad stuff.  I thought through having my stupid watch freeze up. It turns out that it did, and required a hard reset. (But my planned 44k workout was still there.)  I also "flew" over the course on Google Earth several times the night before the race. At the time, I was questioning whether going to bed would help me more. But I remembered that watching the course video of the Paris-Versailles race helped me to visualize climbing the incredible hill on that race.  So I "flew" over the course, thinking through my strategies at every segment.  I had run most of the course in practice. (That also helped).  I told myself when I got to the North loop (30k to 36k), I would draw strength from the water and the trees in the park.  I also had some mental tricks up my sleeve. Doing the walk-run intervals brought me up close to the runners ahead of me, only to put some distance in between us as I shifted to a walk. I used this to my advantage by imagining a fishing reel that I cast & hooked onto the runner in front of me. I reeled myself in with each run. It felt easier.

9.  Use the crowd.  There were thousands of spectators cheering along the course. Lots of kids wanting to give me high fives.  I decided I would intentionally receive or take the energy being offered to me by these people. And when I gave high gives to the kids, I drew in their energy.



10. Plan your nutrition for the days leading up to the race. By the time I finished the race, the tent where we stored our bags and changed clothing was pretty empty.  I arrived even later since I went to the wrong tent first.  A fellow sat on the bench near me and we started to chat.  Turns out he had a fast run but then spent a couple hours in the Red Cross tent getting fluids by IV.  He hadn't prepared for the race by drinking water before the race.  He had terrible leg cramps as a result  I purposefully drank water all day Friday and Saturday, and ate really well all week long.  I educated myself on what to eat and not to eat in the days and hours leading up to the race. And I practiced on my long runs. And I drank enough water  - there's only so much you can do on race day. 


Well, that's enough. Ten points. And I need to go to sleep. Rest and recovery this week. Not blogging.    


PS. Below is the picture of the winner Patrick Makau and Natasja Pompen, the last to finish. She's also a winner.  She ran deliberately to be the last to finish. I ran faster than she did. On purpose.  I felt a little jealous afterwards when I saw all the publicity. But it wasn't my turn. I ran for my goal - a 5:30 finish. And I achieved it.


Monday, 12 April 2010

Stories from Rotterdam

Success in Rotterdam. I ran the marathon in 5:30. It was a fabulous experience. I was quite exhausted last night and spent the evening rolled in a blanket on the couch with my kids.


I will write more about the experience and post it. But I'm back at work this morning, hobbling around. Good news is no blisters or black toe nails. My right hip flexors are a little painful, and when standing I can feel a symphony of muscles, tendons and what not that hold my skeleton upright. Quite interesting to become acquainted with the miraculous body.



Running in the memory of Elham Mahdi got me through the most difficult parts of the run. I wondered if she played with dolls, if her mother dressed her for her wedding, what dreams she held - I asked her to see the Rotterdam marathon through my eyes. I thought of the three days of her suffering before she finally died of her injuries. With that in mind, the aches and pains and challenges of running a marathon were greatly diminished. I felt her anguish or what I could imagine of it. And when I had the opportunity for the TV news interviewing the last runners on the course, I explained that I wanted to raise awareness of the danger to children when they are forced into marriage -that was why I was wearing the yellow shoe lace around my neck decorated with a dozen colorful tiny plastic rabbits.



So, there's one of the many stories from Sunday. There are so many more!

Success in Rotterdam


Woonplaats's-Gravenhage
AfstandFortis Marathon Rotterdam
CategorieV45
Totaal plaats7842 / 7856
Categorie plaats267 / 267
Snelheid7,667 km/uur
Bruto tijd5:33:31
Netto tijd5:30:13
Netto tussentijden (verschil)
5 kilometer36:20 (36:20)
10 kilometer1:13:04 (36:44)
15 kilometer1:49:47 (36:43)
20 kilometer2:29:18 (39:31)
Halve marathon2:39:55
25 kilometer3:13:32 (44:14)
30 kilometer3:56:33 (43:01)
35 kilometer4:36:43 (40:10)
40 kilometer5:14:53 (38:10)

Saturday, 10 April 2010

Find the why

Mental strength to complete a marathon rests in the reason for running.  You must be able to dig deep in the face of difficulties and motivate yourself to continue.  I chose and trained for a marathon to explore my human capacity.  Many times I have said I run because I can.  Tomorrow I will run because I am a woman. I can run safely in my own community.    I am dedicating my run tomorrow to the girls and women of the world who are left vulnerable to gender-based violence by their communities.
I was stunned this morning to learn of the death of child bride Elham Mahdi. She died of internal bleeding following intercourse three days after an arranged marriage to a man more than twice her age.  There are many news reports. you can read a CNN report here, and a Canadian charity report here.  
I was born a woman in a time and place where many women are not safe. I grieve the loss of a spirit sister. Ms Mahdi has had her life stolen.  I grieve for the children and grandchildren she will never have.

 In the killing one person, the whole world dies.

What alarms me about Ms Mahdi's death perhaps most of all is that the political discourse has focused on child marriage rather than the right to say no to unwanted sexual intercourse.   CNN offers this quote from UNICEF regional director for the Middle East and North Africa.  "Her death is 'a painful reminder of the risks girls face when they are married too soon,' Kaag said Thursday." 


Ms Mahdi's death must not serve only as a "painful reminder", but a call to anyone with a beating heart to take action.  The issue is not just about protecting children from premature marriage but also protecting girls and women from rape.   Although Ms Mahdi's husband has been arrested following her death, he may  yet go free.  Yemen has no laws to protect women who are raped by their husbands. 


When even one of us is oppressed, no one of us is free.


I will write Ms Mahdi's name on a bright yellow shoe lace to carry during the race. May I have courage and honor her memory in my effort to be the best I can be. 


Below is the Rotterdam mosque.



Wednesday, 31 March 2010

catching up on the news

I've been a little busy, and not writing here. Sorry if you've been looking for news.  Quick recap: the week after the CPC, I ran 30k in Rotterdam, covering a large part of the course. I started late enough in the day that it got too dark for me to feel safe running alone in unfamiliar neighbourhoods. When the rain started, I ran to the train station and went home, feeling quite satisfied with my effort.  The trouble is that I'm short on the assigned distance (which was the full 42) and I missed some of the earlier long runs that were assigned in January and February. My coach hadn't assigned any interval training either. So, that adds up to going into this feeling a tad under-prepared.

Last weekend was busy.  I  ran 800m repeats for 10k on Saturday and then cycled for 2 hrs/40k on Sunday.  Rest Monday, Swam Tuesday and goofed around with the BOSU today (steps, squats, balancing things that made my son laugh with me and try a turn too).

My running coach finally got his email organised, responded to my half marathon report, and (finally) understood the course pacing limits for the Rotterdam marathon that is a week from Sunday.  He gave me some much-appreciated positive strokes for my effort with the Half.
"Wow, what an experience.  This was a success in many ways.  You found that even though you wanted to quit and the forces were conspiring against you to finish--that you could could push on and finish.
 You ran faster despite a lower level of training and other challenges.  You have the will power of a true athlete.  I am very proud of you!!
 Big lesson to both of us--know what the cutoff time is before entering the race. 
 I look forward to working on a strategy for Rotterdam."
So the strategy is for me to try some different run/walk ratios over one km.

Here's his advice:
"Sorry to hear about the course pace constraints in Rotterdam.  I believe that it is possible to stay ahead of the closure time.
The challenge is that you only did 30K on your last long run.  That is what determines your current "wall".   But you have a good base of training.
Practice a variety of ratios on your short runs to see how you can maintain the 7:50 needed to avoid the course closing.  The more walking you can do during the first 12K, the more fatigue you will erase.
Try three different ratios, on the same measured kilometer.  Try a 15/45, 20/40, 30/30.  Tell me what you get with each.
We will come up with a plan, together."
I remain sceptical of the very short walk/run intervals, but I will give it a try. I found a track that's not too far away (where I had the POSE method coaching session last Friday). So I can go back there.

The marathon will be one big adventure!  My plan is to run it and finish it, on my own watch if necessary. Stay tuned!   Rule No. 1: don't talk to the sweepers.  Rule No. 2: Remember Rule No. 1.

Monday, 28 December 2009

one crappy run




I never had one of these before. A crappy run, that is.  Well, my lesson learned is this. Do Not Open the mail before heading off on a planned long run. 

I was walking out the door with my sports drink in my fanny pack, listening to my fully-loaded iPod. I picked up the mail from the slot and saw an envelope I didn't recognise. I opened it. The envelope contained a rather large bill that I thought I had paid last year.  I stuffed it into my desk and headed back out the door. I was so upset about the bill I forgot to say good-bye to my family sitting in the living room playing music.  A block away, I thought about turning back to say goodbye, but kept going.

Planning a run that will take me more than three hours takes practice. Yesterday I mapped out a route and felt much better about the run. It's difficult to go out that long along the North Sea in the winter.  There are very few shops and no water. I realised the bike route I ride regularly could get me most of the 27k. But what about replenishing my water supply?  I can carry two water bottles in my fanny pack (1.6l) or a Camelbak.  I feel like a camel though....

I solved the water supply problem by breaking the planned run into two parts. One up and back on the beach with Odie, then drop him home, re-fill and head back out.  You can see the problem already, I am sure.  It's the cautionary mantra of ultra-marathoners: "Beware of the chair."

Well, I got going. Odie was happy. I tried getting my Garmin to go too.  I stood around a bit, waiting for it to pick up the satellites. Then I started the workout - which used a distance-based warm-up as the first interval.  Because the watch wasn't tracking distance, the workout never progressed.  My attention focused on the stupid watch, occasionally getting anxious and irritated about the bill. 

I don't usually enjoy the first 15 to 20 minutes of any run. As usual, my legs felt too heavy.  I felt guilty for skipping my mid-week runs - giving myself no slack about the week before Christmas, the ice fields that have surrounded the house, and my trying to finish up work and buy gifts and be festive, etc.  Real athletes train anyway. I have four months before the marathon, and already I feel behind and ill-equipped.  I can run 21k without batting an eye, but today I felt like a rank beginner.    I'm mildly curious about where that expression comes from. After finishing here, I will go read here and here, thanks to a quick Google search.  If you read the links, don't blame me for your A.D.D.

The GPS signal remained too low for my watch.  Or my watch was just stupid. It required a soft reset later in the afternoon, so maybe it wasn't the satellites' fault.  I was listening to Femi Kuti, Beng Beng Beng and trying to remember how to run before I became Garmin-Stupid.  I took the buds out of my ears, screwed around with my watch, gave up, and looked for a landmark for an out-and-back.  I picked a spot that yielded a little over 8k round-trip from my house.   In hind-sight, I should have just stayed out longer.

Another factor that made the run crappy was that I was too hot. I had three layers, including my new wool Icebreaker from New Zealand.  I've been wearing this jacket since it arrived under the Christmas tree.  If you looked at the jacket link, I do not look like that model. My ears are smaller.

Once I got home, I got cold. And the ambivalence I feel about long weekend runs set in. I like spending time with my kids. I also like sleeping in. Of course I could get up earlier, finish my run before the kids rally, and have more time with them. But I don't get up early. I stay up too late and then oversleep.   Like last night and this morning.

So with the failure of my gear, I don't know my pace. I have a good idea of my distance thanks to a google pedometer map.   Still willing to click? Here's my route. 

I made lunch for everyone. Then they dashed out of the house to go skiing - indoor Dutch skiing. Don't feel jealous.  

Then the final blow - my next love assaulted me. Being home alone.   I decided to blow off the rest of the planned run and just chalk this one up to One Crappy Run.  I sorted kids' clothes, posted a couple of the good items on eBay (I have to pay that bill somehow....).  And baked Christmas cookies.  Photo above. Gluten-free. Meringue and almond meal. Very tasty.  Let me know if you want the recipe.

I wrote an unapologetic report to my coach.  I have to admit to myself I'm ambivalent about LSD.  I hinted at this problem I am having with the very idea of four-hour runs. I want to do the M in 5.5 hours. But do I need to run a half-m or more every other weekend to do that?  I don't know.  He's got a lot of experience. But I put his training plan in "old school."  I'm going to think about it some more.  And eat some more Christmas cookies. 

My promise to myself - do both my mid-week runs, with some drills to help me run faster.  Get back to the gym to lift.  Fill out my blueprint for success in 2010.  Build a solid financial foundation.

Thursday, 29 October 2009

what's next

The "club" marathon I planned for December is a bust. I looked at the website again, and read it more carefully (or perhaps with wiser eyes). The race has a five-hour cut-off. Given my time for the half, I don't reasonably expect I can cut 15 seconds a kilometer off my pace and hold it for twice the distance. Maybe I've thrown in the towel too quickly. I just didn't want to set out on a course knowing they would pack up long before I got to the finish line.

I can run instead the 16k "Mackerel" race on the beach at home on 19 December. It's not the same, but the minimum pace is 8:30, which I can do without question. (And there's the split pea soup finish...)

To dig out of feeling down about the busted race plan, I registered for the Rotterdam Marathon 11 April 2010. They have a 5:30 cut-off. The Paris marathon is the same day, but I've been to Paris a lot and can't stand the idea of having to get another medical certificate.